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as most of you know, this sunday is my birthday...yes there is something cool on the 5th other than the superbowl. What i am getting at is the fact that i have saturday night off and in order to celebrate that i have a saturday off and the fact that the next day is my birthday, i would like to invite everyone out for my birthday. I am thinking somewhere like bailey's or Beaver creek or even snookers...somewhere a bunch of us can get together, shoot some pool, throw some darts, and of course have a couple drinks whatever your poison may be. so, i was going to send out an email, but i dont have a lot of people's addresses and i figured by word of mouth, the important people would hear about this. so, tell people about it that dont read this, and i will post again closer to saturday with a more specific location for the festivities!! hope to see you all on saturday, and call or comment with your intentions!!
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[25 Jan 2006|09:30pm] |
Ok, there is something going on in my life right now that i have been feeling for quite sometime and never told anyone...not even my best friend. Everyone knows that for the past 2+ years diana and i hae not had the best relationship. Well, 3 weeks ago we decided that we would hang out together in order to try and at least rekindle the friendship. Well, we ended up making out for a while sparking the feelings that i had without anyone knowing a little sooner than i had expected. Those feelings are feelings that had never lost even though i had told people i did. Everytime we would see each other, it would be hard for me because there was that unconcious feeling that i still wanted to be with her. Well, i do still want to be with her and we have been hanging out for the past 3 weeks. It feels so right, like nothing i have experienced in relationships since we first broke up almost 3 years ago.
Now, some of you may think that i have these feelings because i have no one else and i am lonely....not true. i have these feelings because they are natural. I have tried with other girls, and it just wasn't the same. I know that we have tried this before and it didn't work. It didnt work because i wasnt ready for it to work, there were too many things going on then it wouldnt have been fair to her or me. And when we first broke up, there were things that i wish i could go back and fix that lead to what happend and some of you may think that those things will still be there. It won't be because both of us are 3 years older now and have gone through or are about to go through things that help along the growing up process. We have jobs, she is moved out, i am moving out this year, we are older, wiser, and more capable of communicating and doing what is necessary to be in a healthy relationship. We can make the right decision, whether it be to get back together or not. We want to give it a fair and legitamate shot without people always puting in their 2 cents.
Of course we dont expect everyone to throw us a party, but we at least expect everyone to look at this as a step in the right direction, whether that direction is a new relationship or the closure that we needed to know if this is right. I am going to do everything in my power to make this work and so is she, and all that we ask of people is to be supportive friends and not turn this into something to fight about. i mean we are all growing up, and i cant let this stay in the back of my mind anymore. it was literally eating me up inside and causing me a lot of stress until i got it all off of my chest. i am turning off commenting in order to avoid random comments. if someone feels the need to put in their 2 cents, i may ignore it, but if someone wants to talk friend to friend, i can handle that...you all know my number. if i dont answer, i am working and will call back later. people read these journals to see whats going on in everyone's life. this is my life, and i am excited about it. talk to you all soon.
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| Happy New Year!!! |
[01 Jan 2006|08:11pm] |
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well, another year has come and gone and this year was an interesing one. I graduated from college, got a full-time job, dated a few girls and got nowhere fast with them, and i did the usual stuff with the people who mean the most to me. Also, i would like to say that i ended the new year having the most fun i could have without getting laid. Went to brandon's friend keith's house for food and a brew, than off to becky's where i saw people i hadn't seen in some time and miss greatly and proceeded to get unbelievably smashed. Passed out and got raped by a blue sharpie that better come off within the next few days. however the things written are hilarious and jeff has tons of pictures. i also apparently had relations with an inflatable t-rex. I had a blasty blast and i wouldnt have wanted to spend it any other way. Unfortunately, i woke up the today and went to work and proceeded to profectile vomit tequilla and champagne for about 15 minutes. so, heres to the new year and quoting jon bon jovi..."every new begining is an old begining's end". Happy new year!!!!!
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Another christmas come and gone. I had a pretty good day until now, when i realize that tomorrow i just get to go back to the very thing that was keeping me from enjoying my christmas in the first place....the mall. Back to my stressful, more times than none, uneventful job.
I look back on my christmas and all i think of is being at the mall and the one day i got to enjoy giving and recieving gifts, eating too much food, and sharing good times with my awesome family. I also think about the fact that i am a walking abyss. I say merry christmas, but it doesn't mean the same things that it used to, it doesn't feel the same way that it used to, there is just so much missing. I miss my friends, i miss my family, and i miss having that warmness that i used to feel on the holidays because i was whole. I am cold, and i am empty, and i don't know what to do. sure i got everything i wanted, but that's all material stuff that..shit..i can't even enjoy because i am always working. but anyways, i know this is really depressing and i don't mean to bring anyone down if you read this, but, i need to get it out somehow. Hope everyone had a great holiday, i did too on the outside, it was just on the inside that just had nothing to celebrate. I am going to go try to enjoy the last moments of christmas before i go to sleep and wake up for just another day.
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[24 Dec 2005|07:20pm] |
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well, the craziest week of christmas is over, now i get about a day and a half to enjoy this wonderful holiday with my family!! than, it is another week of stupid returns and angry stupid kids returning shit, because they didn't get the $300 jacket they had originally wanted. Than it is new years and a chance to showcase the new me and get the monkey off my back that is the holidays, especially when you spend them alone. So, i want to also take this oppurtunity to wish all of my best friends a merry christmas and i can't wait to see most of you on new year's hopefully!! Have a safe holiday and i am out!
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| Disclaimer.... |
[20 Dec 2005|09:45pm] |
If you are currently my friend, male or female, you will not be effected by this statement, i will continue to love and be there for you...however....
As of January 1st, 2006, there will be a new Andrew. I have spent the last few years of my life being the nice guy, the friend, and the shoulder to cry on for girls. I have put other people first, and always put myself last. I have also always been very laid back when it came to girls and never really had a lot of confidence when it came to meeting them and talking to them. Well, that is all about to change. It is about time that i put myself first and be a little more selfish when it comes to that sort of thing. I am sick of always being the "friend" or the "big brother". I want to get back into the game and have fun again, because honestly, i have been a little depressed lately. Everytime i get close to someone, something happens and i get nothing but a hug and a "i'll call you later". And half the time, they never call back.
I'm not saying that i am going to be a jerk and an asshole, i am just saying that i am going to be a little more aggressive, have a little bit more confidence, care about what is going on that moment instead of reading into every situation and ruining the chance of living for the moment, and worrying about myself along with others. Because, i mean, let's be real, i am almost 24 years old...the fun times are coming to an end and i haven't had all of my fun yet. So, don't be afraid of the this new outlook on my life, but be excited by the fact that i am going to be a more fun person to be around and more of a whole person that perhaps that special someone, or right now, anyone is looking for. Well, that's all I've got because nice guys finish last, but maybe a nice guy with a little more of a spark will finish first....Put that in your mouth and chew it, it's delicious!
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[08 Dec 2005|10:28pm] |
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regional managers are coming to the store in the morning to see how things are going for christmas so far....the store looks perfect...that could only mean that a promotion could happen this week!! i pray everything goes great tomorrow so i can get out of this funk i have been in about this job! Wish me luck!
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| Turkey Day |
[24 Nov 2005|07:43am] |
I just wanted to wish all of my awesome friends a happy thanksgiving. And to those who went out last night, i wish i could have been there, but i am sure most of you threw back an extra drink or two i could claim, lol!
I worked till 245 in the morning and i am exhausted and was about to quit last night...i can go into more details about that later. But have a safe and wonderful thanksiving!!
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[19 Nov 2005|11:34pm] |
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we had a lot of fun tonight....too bad there is a snowball's chance in hell something would ever come out of it...why do i always find myself in the right place at the wrong time. and no, that is not a typo...i wish things could be different, but nothing ever goes my way...here's to the night...peace
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[04 Nov 2005|10:16am] |
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i relaize that my drunken rant on this thing last night may have caused a miniature ruckus. it is just me being me and wrote it because at the time that is what i was feeling. sometimes i do that, it happens, im not going to lie, sometimes i miss the past. however, it is not going to lead me to make any rash decisions, so dont get any crazy ideas, lol! i miss being in a relationship, or as dane cook calls it a relationshit. that is what the rant was about....i mean, that is what this thing is for right?
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[03 Nov 2005|11:16pm] |
i just want to say that i had a sweet time with the boys tonight....mongo, women's volleyball, and of course what night wouldnt end right without bailey's and their wonderful company. i had an awesome night tonight and i wont soon forget it. i would also like to take the oppurtunity to realize that i suck and am drunk and can't get the one thing off my mind that has been bugging me forever...blah
"all my dreams are trying to come true, all i ever wanted was you, but you dont understand, forget the master plan, i'd give it all away just to have you back again, i sent it in my letter, so we'd could make it better, no need for you to read between the lines. "
....blah, blah, blah....i should really quit drinking cause it makes me realize how retarded i really i am....
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[23 Oct 2005|01:22pm] |
ignore the previous entry...it is a bunch of gobbledy-gook. I have no idea where i was going with it, lol!!
p.s. i hate the flu, and it obviously hates me
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[23 Oct 2005|12:39am] |
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i am a glass box of emotions right now.....fuck....i am drunk....fuck.....whatever...thanks to those who made me forget tonight, you know who you are, you are true, you are real, and you were there...and thats all i could ask for, for those who were not there, i felt you in sprit...you know who you are....im drunk and am babbling...peace!
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| finally.... |
[05 Oct 2005|09:33pm] |
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I get to get away from dearborn for the second time this year and the first time since i went to vegas back in june. after 7 days straight of working i am leaving after work and driving to my cottage cause i haven't been there in almost 3 years. I am sooo excited to to hang out with my family for the weekend and to just spend some me time by the lake and do some golfing with my cousins. should be a good time. ill miss you guys and matt, i will see you for sure next time you come in, sorry i missed you bro and have some fun while you are back in town!!! peace, im outta here!
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[14 Sep 2005|12:07am] |
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i just want to say that i appologize for the stupid instant messages the last couple of days, someone sent me a im virus and it took a shit on my motherboard, so i have to get rid of it so i will not be on instant messenger for a few days while it is under repair....thank god it only effected the instant messenger....peace out!!
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| The Weekend |
[07 Aug 2005|11:57pm] |
Well, after another week at A and F, it was time to enjoy my weekend off and boy did i ever. My 5 year high school reunion was pretty cool. I talked to some people that i havent talked to in quite some time and it was fun. After that, we went to homecomeing where i think i one of the coolest firework shows ever. After that we all went over to adrienne's house and partied for quite some time. than i went back to my house with whitney and we hung out till 5 in the morning. Sunday was softball family night which was awesome cause we won both games and everyone was there to see it. than we went back to homecoming and watched awesome fireworks part 2 and i am now going to bed cause i have a last minute meeting in the morning...blah!
A new job, a new girl, i think things are falling into place.....good things come to those who wait! Good night world
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[26 Jul 2005|12:15am] |
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well, the first day at abercrombie was pretty sweet...i love the people that work there, they are really cool and make the job pretty easy and the day go by quicker. I am slowly learning everything from a million different folds to the way the floor is set up and i am sure i will learn the cash register and all its policies next. Should be alright, i am looking forward to the oppurtunity i have been given even though i have my first meeting at 8 am tomorrow...blah! in other news, just wanted to wish a happy 22nd birthday to my girl lauren!!! the double deuce club welcomes you even though i am no longer in the welcoming committee! enjoy your day and if it is not too late when i get out of work, i will call you and see what you are up to! that is all, i have to wake up in 6.5 hours....PEACE!
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[20 Jul 2005|12:22am] |
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i am no longer going up north...i will be home this weekend, if anyone cares, lol
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[19 Jul 2005|09:59pm] |
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Anyone up for a cheap vacation? i can only take one person, but does anyone want to go to my cottage with me thursday through sunday? let me know, if not, i will see you all when i get back!
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[19 Jul 2005|01:06am] |
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I am soooo exited...i fill out all of my paperwork for my job at abercrombie on thursday and i start next monday!!! i am celebrating by going up north on thursday till sunday. but i will miss you all while i am gone and it is going to be good because i can just chill by the lake and reflect on life, its going to be great...you all rock and i will talk to you all later!!!
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